So while I was on the home page for my blog I kinda got to thinking about how my blog can be perceived. I really don't want this thing to come off as really pretentious and shit, so here it goes:
1. The name: I, Musical Genius is an Arrogant Sons of Bitches song. Obviously by my large bulk of posts about him, you can tell I love Jeff Rosenstock. I liked the song title and chose it for the title. It does not reflect my views of myself (am I too paranoid?). Also, I'm an asshole. I guess that's the sentiment behind the song too.
2. All the music discussion: I don't want it to come off as "I know everything about punk rock. I listen to bands yo haven't heard of. Meah meah meah". I just seriously do just read punknews.org all day or post on the punknews messageboard all day and listen to music all day. I just seriously have no life and spend it all listening guys who play fast music. Usually when I find a song that's really turning my crank I throw it up on here, just 'cause. When I see that a tiny unsigned band has put up a free download I throw it up on here. Generally, they say when they put it out for free "Spread the word and tell everyone you know", so I try my best to do that. I like bands and want to keep liking them in future. I just want to help them out. Most people have probably heard of all this shit anyways.
3. Sorry about that "51 Albums That Changed My Life" bullshit. How fucking ridiculous was that? First of all, it clearly should have been called "My Favourite 51 Albums" instead so I didn't sound like a dickface with a head the size of the moon. Secondly, how stupid is that concept? New albums are constantly becoming new favourites of mine and I try to listen to new stuff all the time. So it's dumb to try and pigeon-hole what I like that much. The list didn't even have Kid Dynamite or A Wilhelm Scream on it. Thirdly, who the fuck wants to read about how much I like Sum 41's second album? Fourthly, I don't care if you judge me, I still like that album.
I can't think of anything else right now. I'll probably add to it again later when I get tired of writing this essay.
Cool, my minds wandering and it feels oddly nice to criticize myself. They always say "You can't laugh at others until you laugh at yourself" and I really try to keep that in mind all the time. Because if you take yourself too seriously you become a bigger joke than the one made about you that time you stumbled over some words or something minor like that. So yea, I realize who I am and what I do and what I'm known for. I know most people probably think I'm a weirdo (I once got recognized as "that jackass from the 52 (bus route) with the flipped up hats" at a party). That's also not the first time that type of thing has happened, (aren't you the guy with the bright shoes? plaid shirts? bright skateboard, etc.). And you know what? I'm fine with that. I mean most people who know me would probably take this to mean that I like being ridiculous and kind of putting on a show to entertain those around me, and I do, I really do. But I also think that it's me getting recognized as being different. I kind of stick out of the crowd (ok, really stick out), but you know what? I like sticking out. I think being the same is boring. So if that random girl recognized me for being different than everyone around me and sticking out, then I kind of feel like I was recognized for being me. And fuck, that feels pretty damn good.
I dunno, as much as I might complain about life every now and then, or complain about girls, it's really ok. Because when I think about it, I am totally happy with who I am. I think my parents did an absolutely amazing job of raising me and put a pretty good head on my shoulders with a decent set of morals.
I like that I listen to the music I do.
I like that it's different from what everyone else listens to.
I like that I dress differently (obviously not so much the case at shows).
I like that I feel the way I do about things. You know that I'm an emotional guy and stuff. Because I see the way some people act at university and I really think it's a veil. They act like they don't give a shit, but I think they really do and just don't know what to do about it (I've seen this happen multiple times). I don't have it all figured out (not even close) but I guess I have a head start on these guys, so it's better than nothing.
More and more I find that I disagree about doing the "right thing" with people. Now it's not like I make a big deal about it, it's usually silent, but it does get to me. I like that I know to do the "right thing" even when most people don't.
I guess in short, I'm saying I'm totally cool with who I am. If you aren't it's really easy to be. Just think a lot about all the things you've done and how you really feel about them. Things that happened in the past can't be helped now for the most part, so just cut off the worrying about them. I know that's harder for most people than it is for me, but it's really what you got to do. One quote that oddly, really spoke to me the first time I heard it was by Dr. Seuss. I know it sounds kind of corny and you might think it's dumb, but truer words have never been spoken. Except for the Ancient Greece scene in Bill and Ted's :). But anyways: "Do what you want and say what you feel, because those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter".
Don't worry be happy. I know that songs sucks and is overplayed, but it's true. If you worry too much it'll eat you alive. Be at ease with the person you are and then it seems like most areas of life fall into place.
Holy fuck, I'm rambling. Ok stopping now. Please, please, please if you see spelling/grammar errors point them out to me. I try my best but usually never catch anything. Bad grammar pisses me off and I don't want to look like a moron.
tl;dr
Ok cool, thanks. That felt good. Listen to The Cure and smile.
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